Time passed
by. My beloved father passed away on November 2012 after suffering from bacterial
infection. He’s already in not-so-good condition with his asthma. But still
losing him the hardest part of my life especially when the last time we
celebrated Hari Raya Aidil Adha, he’s happy surrounded by family-his children,
grandchildren, his great-grandchildren.
How I am
going to remember him? I will put it in my word, he is my FATHER! Fullstop. For
me, people or society or religiously do not simply granted you with the title “father”
if you've not been able to be one. My father is simply a father.
Actually, I
will remember in so many ways. So many memories until his last breath and I
will remember him until my last breath too. Time passing by, it’s now almost
three months we’re living without him. As a single person, I couldn't make
myself busy for not thinking he’s not around. My works don’t really make myself
forgetting about him for a while. Sometimes I've too much time to think over
and over again. Peace of mind is not what I get.
I just can’t
imagine what have been through in my sister's mind the day my father passed
away. They have been by his side since the day he intends to stay put in Sungai
Petani, Kedah. His refusal to go back to his home in Perak always wonders us.
But we know it was the best decision for him to stay near to his children. We-my
brothers and sisters will be able to take care of him. I guess that’s the best
time of their life. I was staying too far to take care of him regularly. But
once a while, going back to see him was my proudest moment. I never tell anyone
about it.
My brothers
and sisters do rotation to look after him. They fight over him, they quarrel over
him, they cry over him, they laugh over him but at the end they found happiness
with him.
How I am
going to remember him? I found so many ways to live up to his memory. We all found
the best way to remember him. We talked about him most of the time. We send him
prayers every single minute of our lives. We will always remember him simply
because he is our father!
AL-FATIHAH…
Amin
